MugWump

Well today was a rather boring day. Got up cause the dogs insisted on going potty. Dumb dogs.

Cleaned up around the house a little, just didnt feel like doing much today. I didnt even get out of my pajamas. The kids did a few chores, the littlest one went to play at a friends house for a while. My oldest went on a date to see "true grit" and my oldest son woke up around 5pm. He was mad but Geesh I had tried to wake him up all day. I quit around 2 cause I figured he must need the sleep since he was probably up all night gaming. Well because of THAT, at least I think it is because of the games, he got a l i t t l e bit snotty and ornerier than I like so he lost that privilege for a couple days.
I was surprised at how well he took it, no tantrums or anything. I have hope that he IS growing up. I very pleased to see him interacting so much better with his younger siblings, the good is amazing the temper is still a problem but I do see some progress. IM the one who doesnt have much patience anymore and I know it, Im trying to knock down the irritation level but sometimes I just dont want to. I know that sounds childish but you know that "give a crap" gene we all have? well mine is messed up right now. It works sometimes but on days like today it is totally off line.

Talked to an old school friend, She is a 911 operator and is super uplifting and helpful, partly its her job but she always was like that. It was good to talk/chat to her she did her thing and I feel better, she helped me out. Talking through stuff usually does that for me.

I worry about my oldest son, he is an amazing young man but has SO much anger, always has unfortunately, and his dad well he didn't help matters, they were TOO much alike and started butting heads at his birth. That is part of the problem. My husband loved him so much and really looked forward to him but, unbeknown-st to us Kevin had a low testosterone problem AND it was compounded by depression which was a complicated thing, that has to do with HIS dad, its that stupid cycle thing but a real problem. Kevin worked to break it but with HIS physical/chemical issues being hidden for a long time it caused problems with his son. I guess that is part of the reason I am going into counseling. Ive been doing it for about 20 years anyway I may as well get paid for doing it.

Well Stargate universe awaits. Have a good night.