Sigh, I remember….

I remember this day with you my love,                        

Our hike up the canyons, the stream we crossed

Your steady steps across the log, my wobbles.

I remember your hand there to steady me

Catch me close, your strength, your love

I remember the climb up the trail,

Your journey to the top of the mountain.

I stayed below to watch, marvel and encourage.                                                     

I saw the yearning as you looked to the Heavens                           Both of us searching for a miracle.                                                                                                  I remember
Sitting at your bedside holding your hand
Lending you my strength, my arms, my mind           Watching you at the end of your journey

Loving you, 
       encouraging you.                                
            Praying you didn't have to leave

Your Journey here ended
with me staying behind, 
                                   To care for our children, 
                                                            prepare, 
                                                             so in time

                    
 I can cross from this world, wobbly

Your hand there to catch me close

        Your strength, your love . . .  YOU

STILL Love and                                          Miss you Kevin, 

                                         Ne’ 4-25-2012

School is just around the corner, I start before the kids! I am so excited to be on the down hill side of my Bachelors degree.
Have a lot going on, may have sold my dads place! YEAH! I have to go down this week to get whats left there so I can be done in Utah. That will be a load off for sure. I will be able to get my house here in MT finshed finally, then I can sell it next year. I am still going through probate, its not a long process but you do have to have money to do it, that is in short supply.

I am trying to decide if I can do my homeless huts, I have an idea that I dont seem to be able to get rid of so Im thinking that God wants me to do this. I want a nice sized piece of land about 10-20 acres so I can do this. I found these adorable dome homes that are amazingly insulated and would be perfect for family's.

I have found that most homeless shelters dont allow for families, most allow for women and children or just men. I dont see how that helps families get back on their feet. I see it pulling family's apart when they need to have each others love and support.

I am looking at applying for grants for this soon, just want to know HOW to write a grant. DO have a workshop coming up that should help with that. Here is hoping.

I want to have 5 to start out, they are not huge but a family could easily live in one of the "hobbit houses" Id eventually like to have 10 of them.   http://curvedbydesign.ca/    I am also wanting tent spaces and possibly some RV spaces as well, kind of thinking a communal type thing where everyone helps out and helps each other, Community meetings etc to help each other. IF we can do that, like it was prior to this selfish me me me era I think we will be able to achieve something great! I am sure there will be a learning curve but I look forward to it. If I can get it going!

Want to go to Glacier NP soon, its such a beautiful place need to take the camera and get some shots and the kids need to go DO something besides play video games..

Just a last thought about probate, it is a mess to go through this, wills are important no matter how old you are, just having 2 peoples signatures versify most wills and you can get them on line for free in may cases, IT IS SO WORTH IT. 

I am selling 2 burial plots on Craigs List, with my half of the money Im getting my funeral all paid for. When my parents did that and gave me it as a present for my 17th birthday, I thought it icky but do appreciate it so much. I do not want to leave my kids with that expense or stress. Kevin's Funeral was a bit over 4 grand and we got a casket for free and his boss paid to have him sent to Montana from AZ, add those expenses and its more than 6K.. NOT good.  It may seem a bit morbid but we are all gonna do it so why not plan what we want and NOT burden our children?

This N That

WOW time flies when life comes at you fast..

Well I graduated from the community college and have been enrolled in the University of Montana, Im working towards that Social Work degree.

Been an interesting ride so far and am actually looking forward to what new things are to come.

Mariah has been married a little over a year now and is a very happy wife.

Aurora turned 12 and entered the young womens program just in time to go to Girls camp for the first time, she had fun.

Forest went on a 5 day Boy Scout camp and seems to have had fun. He enjoyed the patches he worked on and the talks and getting to know his leaders better, He turned 17 today!

We went to the fair, saw the animals and the little ones went crazy on the rides, Aurora threw up on one! So it was a good thing! hee hee,. I must do a little bragging here. On a whim I entered a Ceramic wreath I had made while in my pottery class at FVCC it took best of show and first place. I also won a second place ribbon for a gluten free angel food cake!  Pretty good I think.

Yesterday we lost an important member of our family, Well not really but Dawsons favorite pants got murderated so we had to have a funeral for them, no really we did. We cremated his pants. It was rather moving and yes a little funny but he was really sad. The kids and I also got the opportunity to do a little work, I went with them and we put up some cedar fencing slats. They worked pretty hard and I felt they needed that experience.

The last part of this posting is, I'm ticked at whoever decided to steal my axles! yes TWO axles were stolen I needed those! I was going to put them on my trailer tomorrow and now because someone was a dishonest jerk I am not able to.. Stupid end for a good day at the fair!!