NO Apology

If we apologize for everything we have ever done we have undermined all that we have ever accomplished. There are times and situations when it is appropriate to step up and admit wrong but NOT when freedom is being threatened. That is a slog through the mud to destruction.
- Marne' Newton

This may be one of the smartest things I have ever come up with.. Today on the anniversary of the terrorist attack on this great nation there are many beautiful pictures with wonderful words but what I do not understand is HOW when there are attacks against Americans around the world, today, our government turns the other way and apologizes to the attackers? I am appalled! I am disgusted!!

Forest helping Dawson

My son wants to be a Marine, he is going to sign up for a delayed entry to join the Reserves in 2 weeks. He is just 17 and wont ACTUALLY join till after graduation but this will give him some good experiences till that time. He will then have a year to get three years, or 5 months of active reserve duty time in, prior to his 2 year DEFERMENT, yup just like Mitt Romney, so he can go on a Mission. He will finish up when he gets home. I was disheartened that it is an 8 year commitment, 3/5 three active 5 inactive reserve ( I still don't have the lingo down yet so that may not be the correct terminology) I am proud of him and also afraid. He is my baby and this is a difficult decision I have to make, because I have to sign him in. MY biggest worry is that he will not be allowed the deferment and because of the current administrations machinations this past 3 1/2 years. I am worried that he will end up waist deep in a war..a night mare for any parent or love one of any service person. I will be praying. This will either make him or break him. (Mommy moment)

Small town respect

I am enjoying school, its a lot of work but it is getting me where I want to be and with Forests choices, I may work with people who have ptsd, the military or such. Don't know but it is now something I am considering.

I will graduate college when he enters boot camp. Heavy heart that is bursting with pride? Such a conflict. I so wish Kevin were here to talk this out with. It is what Forest has wanted for a VERY long time and I know I need to let him walk his path, I just wanted it to be a little safer one. I pray God helps me to do the right thing by him, he is such a great young man! Against so many difficulties he has turned out to be pretty fabulous and I admire him for the decisions he has made in his life. Crazy thing is he may get his EAGLE AWARDED after he is in basic..It is SO hard to let them grow up sometimes..

Just another day in paradise

Well everyone seems to get their 10 seconds of fame now and then, guess this qualifies as mine.. MY name is in the paper... HEE HEE,, So funny. Not even my home town paper. . . but hey its there for posterity right? Its for that wreath I entered last minute in the fair this year.

Well things have been going good. Went to Utah and had some fun there. Dads place is under contract, X fingers hoping it all goes through fine, so we went and got out the stuff we needed, well ok wanted.. A bedroom set, some tools a snow blower and welding stuff Forest will be able to use. Not a huge amount of things but meaningful to me. What Mike Shaffer did to dads house is just amazing beautiful craftsmanship and the tile work is fantastic.

We went to Lagoon while we were there got a family picture, its weird not having Kevin in it and Mariah is with Jacob now so that's difficult but this is my family.. 

We took one last year with all of us but Kevin. I still haven't seen it Mariah has it, the stinker... 


We all had fun as you will be able to see as soon as I get the picts back. I will post them. These are from our fun family photo shoot at Pioneer village in Lagoon..

The kids were against it initially but really did get into the swing of things toward the end. . . 


I really do feel like its them against me sometimes, and no they don't hold a gun to my face but they do gang up on me the little rotters..


WARNING:BAD ATTITUDE BELOW:WARNING

I find myself not wanting to DO anything right now, pretty apathetic about life. I get up do the on line school work but that's about all I'm interested in.
I need to get less blah and actually DO laundry, clean the house, cook meals. I know its partly depression and partly frustration, hey that sounds like a song in there some how.. But I do have some plans. I want to get my Shower in my room, I have it all planned out just need that darned money to do it. Its gonna be purdy when its done. 

I have a guy coming to clean up and redo my back yard area, its a mess. Thanks septic installer guy, he was supposed to back fill it and grade it make it look good then seed but he left huge piles of crap and didn't do squat. Kevin was going to fix it but that's not happening now.

I also want to get my deck on so I can enjoy it, even in the winter, I like to grill and haven't for a long time cause well I don't have a grill right now or a deck, but I am looking forward to it when its done too. Have lots of gonnas when the money is there.

WARNING ITS A WORSER BAD ATTITUDE BELOW WARNING

I am sick of just hanging out around the house, YES there is a lot I could do but I'm on strike and don't wanna.. WAAA WAAA I know, ya big crybaby, just do it.

I need some motivation I guess. My get up and go laid down and DIED. It will get better I know it I just need to keep pluggin along.

I think my biggest problem is I HATE this house, Ok maybe that is too strong a word but it is not a house I ever wanted to live in. It is a beautiful home just not what I want so . ,  ME being who I am thinks about what I do want.
Still, I'm grateful for what I have, don't get me wrong, there are just some not so great memories in this house and I want to start over.

LOVE the probate process, it should not take this long but I just am not made of money so it is, THAT is depressing too. WOW this is really turning into a crybaby post but too bad, its how I feel this lovely Labor day.

Well rather than depress the heck out of those few of you who follow this, I'm going to go and DO something maybe I will actually cook breakfast today. Gonna find something fun to go walk to and do today.